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Its pretty obvious that I suck at keeping an up to date blog but I think this might be the start of me trying to do this more often. I think that writing could potentially help me with my problem of being terrible at talking about whats going on in my life and in my head.

So as for the update, Houston and I moved into our house together at the beginning of February and its honestly a dream come true. I'll be honest and say that I was apprehensive about getting a house with my boyfriend but its working better than I ever thought possible. It feels amazing being in love and having this life with him.

The downside of things lies in the fact that I'm having a hard time getting adjusted to living in a new place. I always thought that I had so much support in Greensboro and that it wasn't possible for me to be lonely. Now I'm finding that here I feel the most alone and clueless. I don't know what to do with myself and I just feel more and more alienated from the world with each passing day. I know that I'm doing this to myself by staying locked to the confines of the house every day but I honestly don't know what else to do. I leave hope in the idea of once I find a job and really get settled in here that things will change but I think that I may also have to change to make these things happen for me.